For some, it was the boldest / bravest decision I made so far but for me it was the best move I needed to make for my child.
I trusted the process, the timing and the father of my daughter.
Hours before she was conceived, I was babysitting a child of a friend. Ako ang nagpatulog at nagbihis sa kanya. Feel na feel ko ‘yun. And that moment I whispered “Gusto ko na talagang magkaroon ng sarili kong anak, anak lang!”
Fast forward to today, 1 year and 3 months after, I am putting on diapers to my own child. Napakabait ng universe sa akin at tinupad niya ang hiling ko.
I know I am making weird and complicated decisions and choices that have potentially life-long ramifications for her and more difficult consequences for me to take. But I am putting so much trust to myself.
Ngayon, lahat ng gagawin ko kailangan maganda, lahat mabuti. Noong dumating na kasi siya, lahat ng bagay ay para na sa kanya, lahat ay dahil sa kanya.
Sana nga sapat na dahilan na ‘yun para maging mabuti akong magulang sa mata ng iba. Sana sapat na dahilan na ‘yun para hindi siya tingnan bilang “kakaiba”.
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